Sad at the end of a Manga….sometimes left wanting more!

Right well when I get hooked on something I get obsessed! I lead a very unhealthy life with unhealthy obsessions but I can’t seem to help it! They seem to take me away from my silly boring life and they let me escape! They transport me to a happy world where I can live in the world of the characters and pretend that what is happening to them is happening to me! I read shoujo manga because it makes me happy but also because I like romance! One day I hope to have a powerful and strong romance that will last like it does in so many of the stories and mangas I have read.

I have to admit that at first I always wished that mangas would be in colour because they look better. But now I am used to the black and white and actually I like in black and white! The characters in the manga also are ones that I fall in love with! I swear I actually have crushes on non existent manga characters which is funny because I am in love with these drawings of the guys! Call me weird but it cannot be helped, it can only be confessed! They just look so attractive some of them and I love the way they are drawn. Usually manags make me feel all happy and fuzzy inside! But when they end they make me depressed and dissatisfied with life and people. Not sure why and don’t think it should make me feel like that but I suppose it is because I don’t really have much of a life so I take refuge in these stories and connect with the characters and fall in love with the mean but nice guy. It seems that like reality no one wants a mean guy, but girls always go for the bad guy because they are interesting and we want to know what makes them act the way they do. They have a certain allure and mysteriousness. Whereas nice guys are soo sweet and lovely but somehow are boring. (Well not all nice guys) But somehow I want a nice guy but who is also not too nice that I could easily dominate him. I suppose what I am saying is you want that balance and not one single person being domineering in the relationship. Anyway what am I saying? These are only characters after all!

Anyway the main point of this post is that yesterday I finished reading a manga “Stepping on Roses” and it is the first manga that really made me feel sad that it was over. The other mangas that I have read previously have been very long and some have not even ended yet so I’ve not had the chance to have the feeling, but those that have been short and ended have left me content. This particular manga though was just so powerful in its own way and left an impact on me which I somehow can’t describe how or why it left an impact. Maybe it is because recently I have been feeling pretty crap and unsatisfied with my life that I am left unsatisfied with the ending of the story. Don’t get me wrong I liked the ending and I liked the story very much, the problem is I just didn’t want it to end. In fact it ended too soon! Although there is no point dragging some stories on, this one I just could get lost in. 

If it continued on forever it would become boring because it needs to be exceptional to hold my attention for a long time, though normally this does not usually last. Its really hard to explain but all I can say is I don’t like this empty feeling that I have been left with. Usually I get it with animes, but this time it is a manga that has left me feeling sad! I want to know more- I want to read more but it is over so how can I? I really need to get a proper life! But I can’t stop reading and I can’t stop falling into these traps! Maybe one day things will be different? Only one can hope! But for now I will just have to find another manga to satisfy my manga/anime needs and so forth continue with the endless vicious circle. Anyone recommendations for a romantic shoujo? I am in need of something new!

Feeling sad, empty and hopeless after the end of an anime!

Recently, I’ve been watching a favourite anime of mine, but I try not to watch animes because I know how 1) addictive they are 2) how sad they make me feel once they are over! Most people think anime are a waste of time, but I love them and consider it a chance to learn some Japanese phrases! They are entertaining and I suppose an escape from reality which is always nice. You can come to love them, the characters and really connect with them, but most of all you ask how does it make me sad if they are that good? Well the answer is simple, they are not real! I wish so much that the characters and the story which I fully immerse myself was real- would carry on forever because that won’t get boring at all. Ok so eventually it will get perhaps a bit boring but then it might not if you consider it as similar to an ongoing drama show like Eastenders or Casualty!I don’t think I could ever get bored of Casualty! Eastenders is a different kettle of fish though- I think that can get boring and go through phases!

Now I can’t say that I have felt sad after the end of a manga because for some reason and I suppose it is because the mangas I read pretty much never end so I don’t think I have to deal with it for a long time. What’s more is that if a manga is still ongoing, then the chapters are published every few months in English so you can forget since you have to keep checking months later for the new chapter; so it’s a rather slow process. Slow burning in a way which can enable you to lose interest more easily since your tastes cannot be satisfied till the author publishes the next part and obviously that takes time thus you need distractions and most people do have distractions which keep them occupied till the new release. These distractions are called life, though there are the fair few who cannot be distracted and think about it all the time. I don’t know how those people do it because that would drive me insane! It’s kind of like when tv series end and then return 6 months later. At first you are sad, shocked and your interest has somewhat peaked if they’ve left you on a clifthanger- cruel yet smart if you want to keep your viewers enticed and returning for more! But after a while you forget about the show and move on with life until it comes back on again and you find yourself excited again, yet waiting every week for a new episode can be painful. Unless you’re one of those people who cannot wait till it comes back on TV and instead watches it online.

Back to my point on animes, once the series ends, you are forced to leave that world which you became immersed into- a world which you connected with the characters whom some may have felt represented you to an extent either by the heroine being shy, kind, strong yet naive and innocent- or even wanting to possess qualities which were shown and you admired them. But most of all it is the guys in the animes who have the biggest impact I think because they are the ones who kind of steal your heart. You would laugh, but sometimes in reality I do unconsciously happen to look for guys who look like anime characters. I never noticed this, but my friend did and it took me by surprise when she one day turned me and said “You know that guy kind of looks like the guy from that anime you love!” Oh dear! That’s not good!

Animes tend to present the unreal and the fantasy because they are only stories! But they have such a massive impact and leave a large impression on you (well maybe not you, but me definitely!)- well depending on how much you let them affect you, but if you were heavily involved and your interest in the anime was high then you would inevitably become emotionally involved in a sense. Animes make the real feel crap and the unreal look amazing with their good looking guys/girls, nice lives and perfect happy endings though I will admit they’re not all happy! Most of the ones I watch (Shoujo animes/mangas) are happy endings and it makes for a depressing after thought! Why can’t guys in reality be like the guys presented in the anime? Answer because they are not real!! But I sooo wish they were! I know I should stop chasing the dream, but it can’t hurt to dream right? Well I suppose only if I am dreaming the impossible! This applies partly to books too because you can even become attached to fictional characters in books, so if this is not convincing you, then imagine I am talking about movies/books which present the ‘perfect’ fictional characters! Yes I know there are no perfect men in reality but it is such a shame or not you may try and argue since no-one is perfect!

Truth be told, I couldn’t tell you what I really want because honestly I don’t know what I want and even if I got what I want I am not even sure I’d be satisfied. I suppose that rings true for most people. In this life we will always be searching for something to fulfill us, searching for our purpose, the love of our life, the job of our dreams and even the happy ending we all desire! But for now, we can still dream!

I’ll leave you with an article which I found which is something I couldn’t agree more with! What they say expresses exactly how I feel after watching an anime! It makes for an interesting read!